The reigning Bellator welterweight champion Rory MacDonald has admitted that the drive necessary to pull the trigger inside the cage has been eluding him of late and that his desire to fight has been waning.
He still managed to proceed to the semi-finals of the Bellator Welterweight Grand Prix despite going to a majority draw against the veteran Jon Fitch at Bellator 220.
MacDonald, as the champion, retains the title by default as the tournament follows the same rules as a regular title-defense.
Rory was heavily favoured in his opening GP showdown with the former UFC star Jon Fitch – a man who despite coming in on a strong winning streak – was seen as one of the biggest outsiders in the entire bracket.
MacDonald, of course, has been seen as a strong favourite to win the tournament outright.
After the five rounds were through, it was the wrestling of Fitch that stood as the difference between the two as the judges failed to award MacDonald the fight – with a pair of them calling it as a draw and the other for Fitch.
Speaking directly after the fight, MacDonald seemed to be in some serious doubt over his ability to continue fighting, citing a change in attitude of late as a reason for his tentativeness inside the cage.
“I don’t have that killer inside. It’s really hard to explain. I hesitate a little bit now. I don’t know what to say. It wasn’t my best performance.
“God has really called me the last little while. He’s changed my spirit, changed my heart. It takes a certain spirit to come in here and put a man through pain and stuff. I just don’t know if I have that same drive to hurt people anymore. I don’t know what it is. It’s confusing. But I know the Lord has something in store for me. He was speaking to me in here tonight. It’s a different feeling.”
Upon being asked by commentator ‘Big’ John McCarthy if he is ready to get back in there and take on the rising talent Neiman Gracie in just under two months, MacDonald’s answer was one that was filled with uncertainty about his future.
"I don't know if I have that same drive to hurt people anymore." pic.twitter.com/6Iosk6RPID
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Cillian Cunningham, Pundit Arena